Look Up

….And just like that it is September 2022. September is one of my favorite months. It is just perfect. Still warm out but you can feel that Fall presence slowly creeping up on you. I hope you all are feeling and doing well. I mean the world is still in shambles but we are still hanging in there right? This year I must say has been decent. This probably has the most stable year I’ve had on all fronts since moving to Texas (dare I even say that *knocks on wood*) and I really appreciate that. I’ve found my stride, comfort, and a sense of peace in knowing that I actually did and continuing to flourish in one of the biggest risks I’ve ever taken. I’ve just been living. I’ve danced a lot, traveled a little (that beautiful picture is from my Cancun trip in July), and some other fun things in between.

If you have been here before you know the drill. I usually take on a month long Self Care September series. Since I started this blog in 2018 I did Self Care September every year except for 2020 and I don’t think I need to explain why that didn’t happen but here we are again entering the ninth month of the year. I think now is a better time than any to jump right back in.

After a long lapse in time from posting I am here again and if you’ve read some of my posts you are probably sick of reading this but here it is: I will never let The Plush Life go. I may let many months go by but I will always end up back here. I don’t generally give myself much grace but when it comes to this here, my baby I have all the grace in the world. In the beginning I really went hard with creating and definitely trailed off but what I have created here is sacred to me. It means the world to see something tangible that I made. It’s mine. Many times I don’t see the things that I have done in my life as accomplishments because I am far from where I want to be and honestly not much has fulfilled me as much as this has. This blog is not even close to what I envisioned but I actually birthed my brain child and it is here for everyone to see and take in.

Every time I take a break the fear of starting again scares me but I know that is only my insecurities coming to the surface. It is my thoughts of what other people’s opinions, questioning why I even continue to do this. All of that is just me looking back. Continuing to play my own perceived failures back in my head. Composing failed attempts of things that haven’t even happened yet. On the other side of that is that whenever I return here it feels like home. It feels safe. I feel so accomplished when I post. I know what this space means to me and could very well mean for someone else today or ten years from now. I know what I can make this. I know there is more for me here in this space. So I won’t stop until God gives me good enough reason to. So I move forward from here and look up.

With all that being said I am taking a different approach to Self Care September this year. My self care focus on the blog will be one thing mainly – posting as much as possible this month. I want to push myself and I want to really ignite the yearning in me to get back to this full force. Cheers to a new month!

If you have not I highly suggest you go back and read my previous years SCS series as there are some gems there for sure. I will be going back myself just to admire my work LOL!